- Location:room
- Mood:
blank - Music:n/a
Is standing in line waiting to watch your favorite band
Is jumping in muddy rain puddles with your best friends
Is dancing by the river at 2 in the morning
Is disturbing the peace
Is watching movie after movie for an entire day
Is icing/popcorn/water fights
Is laughing until you can't breathe
Is going to the midnight premier of the saw movies
Is getting dirty and not caring
Is drinking endless amounts of iced coffee all day long
Is feeling like you're on top of the world
Is knowing there's at least once person you can go to for anything
Is finally getting yourself out of the darkness
Happiness is feeling alive.
- Location:living room
- Mood:
good - Music:n/a
- Location:?
- Mood:
depressed - Music:?
fuck that shit.
- Location:my room
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:a milli - lil wayne
- Location:room
- Mood:
sick - Music:tv
- Location:room
- Mood: calm
- Music:talons - bloc party
- Location:room at my mom's
- Mood:
sleepy
I miss you so much. What we were was two years ago, but now I'm beginning to realize that it was never some horrible ordeal when it was over. It was simply because at the time, we were too different. Our age difference was nothing, but the ages we were at still separated us a lot. I was only 13, far too young to really understand anything and though you were only two years older, everything was far more different. I wasn't even in High School yet. If we would have tried it now instead of back then, it'd be a lot better. You've calmed down, i've sped up, so now we're both floating on about the same line. I try not to think about it, I try not to tell myself the truth, but honestly, I miss you. If I could have another shot, I'd take it, just to see where we went now. I miss talking to you and hearing secrets. Who knows what out of what you've told me was true and what was false, but I don't care. That's what starting over is for, right? I'm just talking bullshit though.
Yours, Nina.
- Location:room
- Mood: cold
- Music:i'm not a theif, i'm a treasure hunter - a skylit drive
hate it
hate it
hate it
HATE IT
- Location:my room at my dad's
- Mood: numb
- Music:bon voyage - all left out
- Location:the box
- Mood:determined
- Music:needles and pins - deftones
- Location:room
- Mood: melancholy
- Music:tower of snakes - eighteen visions
- Location:room
- Mood: blah
- Music:daniel, where's the boat? - drop dead, gorgeous
- Location:my room of course
- Mood: crushed
- Location:my room
- Mood: lonely
- Music:confrontation - otep
I know exactly how you feel. I always feel alone, and that's something I fear. I'm afraid I'll be stuck alone for the rest of my life. I would always put my standards too high, but now I just don't care. If they can make me feel like I'm worth something more than trash, it's enough for me. I'm always trying to fill that void too, all I want is just for someone to care.
Seeing people together makes me upset too, I can't stand being around any of my friends and their bfs/gfs. I love them all, but I get so jealous watching them and I just want to walk away. The thought of getting laid crosses everyone's mind at somepoint, it's just how we all are, but that's not the only thing people one. Some, yeah, but others it's just another thing that happens.
Sometimes I want to die. I've almost killed myself many times, most of them over ex boyfriends. I should have died about two weeks ago, I made my self so sick over a ton of bullshit. It's one of the only things I regret. I drive myself insane so much, I hate it. I always think about stuff too much.
I have dreams, but I never get motivated to pursue them. I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere in life and I hate sitting around the house, but it seems like it's all I do. I know there are a few things wrong with me. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to have an undiscovered mental disorder that no one knows how to cure or treat. I'm also pretty sure I have a mild case of anorexia.
You wrote this because you needed to get stuff out, you needed a way to talk, and in my truth box is where you decided to do it. I do care, and I care to know you. Anyone who takes the time to spill out what they're feeling to me is worth getting to know. I want to be there for people, to help someone feel special and to be someone they can talk to and that will listen to them. The fact you wrote this actually means a lot, even though I have no clue who you are.
I highly doubt you're a creep. If you were, the message you sent would be much, much different. Everyone has something good about them, sometimes people just never bother to see them.
You don't need to appologize for this. I have a ton of bullshit that I dump on people almost every day. I'm glad that I was the one you decided to vent to.
- Location:mah room
- Mood:
curious
- Location:my room
- Mood: blank
- Music:people you know - dance gavin dance
this much desire to fucking kill
i want to tear your eyes out with my own motherfucking hands
i want to kill you, slaughter you, annihilate you
bitch
i've never been filled with so much hate
so much desire to murder
but you, my dear, will be dead very soon
i hate you whore
you're going to wish you were never fucking born
i'll slit your throat and i'll let you know
that i'll be so happy to have you out of my life
i've never been filled with so much hate until now
i want to throw you in the ocean and watch you fucking drown
there's no room for whores like you
especially in my life
i'll hire some motherfuckers to slaughter your ass
or i'll do it myself
i'll do it myself
you better back down bitch, you fucking cunt
cause i'll come after you with my god damn gun
my god damn gun
you can't spell slaughter without laughter baby
and that's exactly what i'll be be doing bitch
as i tear out your throat
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
i'll tear out
your motherfucking throat
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
bitch
- Location:my room
- Mood:
distressed - Music:for stevie wonder's eyes only - bring me the horizon
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